Clearly my self-image is not at its strongest right now. My last post about my hair dilemma was pretty pathetic, and this post isn't going to be any better. It's consuming too much of me, so I figure if I just post it and vent, maybe I'll get over it and move on.
My veins. Ugh! If you've seen me at all during this pregnancy, you've probably noticed the lovely veins popping out of my left leg! They're purple, green, and blue and there are lots of them. So very, very pretty. Hopefully some of them will disappear after the baby is born, but it's not likely that they'll all go away. I had ONE show up with Adam, and before that, none.
Stretch marks. Again, with Adam I got ONE little one on my belly, but this time, I'm seeing a few more appear. They're actually not THAT bad, and they're the least of my concerns since I won't be wearing bikinis EVER AGAIN in my life. However, I still notice them.
My face. Oh my face, my face, my face. Honestly I would take a picture tonight, but my battery is dead. Since July 12th (I only remember the date because it was the first day of teaching summer school and I distinctly remember thinking about my splotchy skin) I have been battling red, itchy, blotchy skin on my chin and around my nose. This is the hardest for me to handle. Not only is it uncomfortable, it's embarrassing. I've tried EVERYTHING I can get my hands on. I asked my OB about it and he thought possibly hives, so he prescribed some antihistamines. No luck. I finally hit my breaking point today and went to the minute clinic. The NP there felt sorry for me, I could tell, but unfortunately, she wasn't sure and combined with the pregnancy, didn't feel comfortable prescribing anything. I've been to a dermatologist once in my life, and I have no issue with going back except it takes about 3 months to get an appointment. I really thought I'd be able to "fix" this on my own. I decided to go to Urgent Care for it because it seems to be spreading and I wanted to take a scouring pad to my face it was itching so badly! Of course it was a beautiful day here, and I was spending it sitting inside the clinic, and of course I had to be seen by the young, hip, cute Dr. Oh well. I really have little dignity left. He thinks it's pregnancy induced eczema (this is what I first thought way back when, but my OB thought otherwise....) so he prescribed a strong topical steroid that he says is safe for pregnancy. And it shouldn't surprise anyone...I never had this with any of the other pregnancies!
It's a good thing Brian and I agree that we are done having babies. Who knows what would happen to my body if there was a #5?!?!?